waaa a sudden flashback happen to me aaa.... u all wanna know what??
tonight I cannot sleep, its all because I drink a cup of coffee...trust me big glass... to study actually...
but my mind cannot focus... so I started to open youtube side... suddenly there was a song title back to December...and my heart scream and say...open it up!.... I just open and suddenly the time when I with my friend appears in my mind....
who is she? or he? haaa... it is SHE... she is Zamiera Zamran... she already move on to other place in Kedah... when I remember our time together... sometime I feel regret how stupid am I to hate someone like her in the first place.... and lastly when she try to be friend with me... she has to move... haaa can that be tragic to u all?
First time I saw her is in form 1... I H.A.T.E her very much... like muchh! because she is different from other girl... she is hyper budgets and stuff!... I hate to see her annoyed side... really2 hate her love story... and just ignore her....
But when we enter the form 2 year.... she starts to greet me... and I was like... pffttt please right... and she's the one who willing to sit with me at the back of the class when everyone blaming me for the class to be change to level 1 of the building... that time she was the one who always be by my side...
start from that day... I always depends on her in class... she was so easy to love...n I started to understand her true colors....nice and happy go lucky girl....and how I wish god make me know that earlier... and wish she know how regret I was to treat her like that.....
after a good relationship being established...she suddenly told me that... her parents wants her to move to other school...without good reason...and I was like... oh god... there's still so much to redeem towards her....all my behaviors and other things that I talked about her... I wish the move plan was a dream... I prayed almost every second of the day....But it just a last minute pray... god won't help it...
and this song.... huwaa.... this is the song that we both love... and whenever I heard this...I feel her... I feel guilt to her... oh god.... I wish I can go back to the day before I know u... seriously you are the best that I never get to have back.... dear friend... I miss you....
even u already move to other school...u still come to me when u have free time... I'm touched!... I know and realize that I mistreat you before this... and I know u already forgive me because u are the sweetest person on earth... u even sing this song to me after we meet...
I would like to hear your voice...and I would like to sing this song to u as a remember and as a sign that I miss you like crazy... your kindness and your soft heart... wish u could come back... even the Amonia day in the school you come...but I ignore u... damn! I ignorant that... I'm sorry friend... but back at that time I'm STRE~SS! you know right on that day what happen to me?
its the day I treasure the most.....but it just nothing until now... this is the time when I really need someone named Zamiera... you the one who willing to hear my story whether sad or happy... you'll held my hand when I'm not strong enough to face the life obstacle and wipe my tears when someone tear me up.... u always be behind my back so bravely waiting for me to fall to catch me....
Even your life is harder than me... But in front of me...you are the heroin that protect me when I can't even protect u.... I know your condition I know your parents... they were wayy to strict than mine... but u are a strong girl... I wish I have u as my family... I wish someday we can study together... well u are way clever than me right...
well here...in the cold lonely morning... I'm crying while remembering all our time together... the love and hate moments...everything is the best...
I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile so good to me, so right and how u held me in your arms that September night, the first time you ever saw me cry....
this line.... actually like this.. I miss you soft heart, your sweet smile so calm in my eyes, so right...and the way u treat me well when I'm sick and when the first time u saw me cry in pain... u'll always there whenever someone try to kill my soul and my smile... you the one who brings it back... you are the best thing in my life... you are the most precious friend I treasure... you are the shoulder I could cry on after my mummy...
Zamiera....waits for my call.... I will call u... :')
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