maybe I should wrote... u can find another million baby accept the one like me... troublesome, naughty, bad, and burdensome... sorry for not be able to be a best baby for you... I know I always trouble you... I'm sorry again for all the fuss that I make... yes... I'll try to stand on my own next time.... I wont troubled u again...
just go and study well... make your parents proud of you... like I said in 'bilik mayat' go and study and when u become a successful student and have a family... come and find me and show to your lovely children that I was once your baby... still remember right? I say it that time because I know the time when u had to leave me will come... I have to prepare for it...
Don't worry...while you were away...I will never forget u even one second... our memory...our time... and every event that happen I know u tried to come to see me...
at that time what I feel is... I'm so glad you made time to see me... :')
every hug that you make me feel... very comforting...I will remember your touch... your word.... every problem that we tried to figure out like detective conan...haha... every moment that we created was only between us... every tears that drop in front of your eyes... I hope u remember all the time that we suffers we endure and many more.... I never want to forget a bit of it...
yes I admit...It is very hard to let you go... far away from me... it's really not as easy as everybody see... you the only one that know me well.. you the only one know when I'm sad... when I'm not telling the truth...
always remember..when I'm in all this condition or situation.....the person name that I will call first is u... SNA... and I know u wouldn't appear... but still I will call... because your name is meaningful to my life... my entire life... you the oxygen that I breath... you the heart that I protect.... I hope you do as I say... learnt live life and come to find me...
At that time I really want to hear you say... baby... this is aunty fau... she was once my baby in high school... and now she is your aunty... I really want to see you be a good and lovely mother to your son and daughter like how lovely you have been to me... for these 2 years.... even it just 2... that's make it more than 1 right...haha......
and from now... I think I have to learnt to call you by the name of Kp... because... when that time come... I cannot call you mummy or else... your daughter will be surprise... hahaha.... and I'm looking forward for that day...
last but not least... thanks mummy... for ever be in my life... even just for a while... it was indeed a beautiful time... and I started to learn to be independent now... look... I'm crying without your shoulder right now :') I am strong right? just in case you miss me.... don't be so shy to open this merely blog...... every condition of me will be in here... where else I want to share right.... assalammualaikum....
your forever baby,
FAU~
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