Its more like Family to me...

hurmmm... for malaysian readers... maybe they have heard this song...for outsider I don't know... maybe have maybe not yet... this song tells about friendship bond... but as a go through the lyrics... for me its more to the meaning of family...so whoever act exactly like the lyric says... I would love to call him/her as family... so here are the lyric..

S.A.H.A.B.A.T by N.A.J.W.A.L.A.T.I.F

Kau ada dikala ku sukaDikala ku dukasetiap tangisan dan juga ketawa

Kau ada dikala ku perlusetia menemanikuPegang erat tanganku bila aku jatuh

Kau lah yang selaluSelalu menemanikuMendengar kisah pahit manisHidup ku

Kau lah yang di situSetia menunggu kuKau lah yang satuMenjadi sahabatku

Ku tahu ku kan selalu adaada dirimuDan ku harap kau juga rasa begitu

Kau lah yang selaluSelalu menemanikuMendengar kisah pahit manisHidup ku

Kau lah yang di situSetia menunggu kuKau lah yang satuMenjadi sahabatku

Kau lah yang selaluSelalu menemanikuMendengar kisah pahit manisHidup ku

Kau lah yang di situSetia menunggu kuKau lah yang satuMenjadi sahabatku

so this is mean FAMILY to me... but...they still have no family tiles with you...so don't u afraid if they just come and go in your life... try to be a strong person and accept the way they all appreciate your friendship... if they just can easily ignore it and fight with you...better watch out... that's not what family for... search for the better... although there's no one perfect..but at least we can find someone better... 

as for me... its happen like a daily routine... but I've tried sooo many way... well I guess I am not that kind of person who can last longer than this period of time... so I gave up easily on the family-friends matter... as I wish to fly over from malaysia.. and I would like to leave out all the people that have leave me now... let them feel what I feel... 

If they can do this to me... I'm very sure that they will not notice even if I die... trust me you all~...

with full of confidence I can tell it by the way they are acting right now... don't bother for people who you care... just remember the people who care about you~

I've tried...

hello...assalammualaikum....

long time no cry...hehehe~....soo... let see my ENGLISH skill after a long~~~~~ time being away to learn english and other subjects....

today I wanna talk about!!... HOW I WISH I COULD TURN BACK TIME~...
why am I saying like this?? oh myy oh myy.... people that love me before become increasingly distant away... :'( ... let mee mention it~...

first mummyeeahh~~... after a small fight (not soo small laa a misunderstanding actually) we seems a bit awkward together... to call her mummy again... i feel a bit burdensome... :/ to post on her fb wall... tooo afraid to do that... to msg her... soo not going to happen... truthfully what I want to tell you all here is... I REALLY MISS HER!!!!... THIS MUCCHH...I MISS HER LIKE THE NUMBER FROM 0 THAT NEVER ENDS... :'( cry again~... she miss me or not? :/

second ohmyunclee!!....after the biggest!!! and shortest fight in the whole world wide... he tend to ignore me much... i don't know laa... I think its really my mistake... but... I really3 want the old him... I don't mean that I want him to be old...haha... I mean I MISS THE OLD DAYS UNCLE... NOT NOW.... u have change... I know its what I get after what I did right... but this punishment is toooo vicious... I miss the time when we were arguing about different opinion... how u wanna be a winnEERRHH....and I give up... because u are the best uncle.... like who can beat u huhh? haha... I really3 want to have the late night chat again... but u refuse to... when i ask u did u still feel the same about me... u just answer yes sure okay... thats really not u uncle... hurmmm what can I do right?... at least I've tried....

third papa...paraperigarno...hohoho... this people aaaaa.... always make me wanna cry because of them!... where he go!!!? again...after SOME fight (Waaa its seems like I really love fighting!! korean people like to say fighting to haha ) actually I was mad at him... and then we both keep silent until today....

hurmm... after all the problem with these people.... I'm glad that god gave me Adelia Amani for me to take care.... even thought she just my niece... I treat her like she is my daughter!!... poor her mother... but her mother actually like it...hehe... she is the first grandchild in my family... taking care of her please me~.... make me forget about all my problem for a while...

it is enough by having her in my arm... after the confinement time pass she will follow her parents to KL... their own house... :'( I'll be staying alor star to sit my PMR exam... and after that... if god wills I will fly to KL with ili to meet adelia again... wait for mak tam k adelia... :') maybe in november... or early than that? who knows right?... just wait for me~.... for now... she is my strength to keep on live~... :D u want to see her face? wait I shall put some of her picture... below... I'm sure will put some...

God please help me to go through the day after this... :') give me back the person that I love... I might be more happier with them by my side... not one of them exclude...

A present from Mak Tam~... ;)

getting bigger....

getting sweeter... :D

I think that's all for now...till then assalammualaikum~