Realize

Hello there...yes you there...
wanna hear a story? bhaha from who? of cause from me... Idiots...

I'm a lonely girl... why? Because lonely laa silly...
Right now

If I have to talk.. I'll rather shout...

If I have to shout...I'll rather scream

If I have to scream... I'll choose to cry...

If I want to cry...maybe I should cry out loud....

the pain of missing them... I just can't hold it back anymore

I miss them like C.R.A.Z.Y...

These burden are tooo much to carry... I can't stand it anymore... every time I'm thinking of them... I keep saying to my heart that... heeyy don't cry.... they go to further their study... they are busy... but they still remember you though... But the ego is just too strong... it go against what my heart says... it keep telling me that... huh! they don't even remember you!... they got new friend... what's the point of remembering you... 

waaaa... I really3 wanna cry... But only if I can cry in front of them... on her shoulder... damn I miss that moment... crying in front of the people that u love... just gonna make you happy again... U don't have to be strong in front of them... just show your inner self... If they love you... they'll accept who u are no matter how weak you are...

Just what did I did wrong??? I know I'm a bit spoil... but that's how I am since a little baby... I get closer to someone I know easily... every people that I know... I'll just straight away think them as my family... because of that I'm a bit spoil and like to seek attention from them... I NEED THEM...

:'( Why I got punished with this kind of life? I got perfect family... completely perfect... from my point of view of cause... but I still feel like lacking of L.O.V.E ....maybe because I'M DIFFERENT...

and I realize that... the people that I LOVE always disappear from me...slowly~...

lets just CRY...ok... bubyee... I need some time... :')