Before the storm

hello... now is currently 1.58 a.m

its raining drizzle outside...
suddenly I start to think about the people...that I love... and every moments with them...
A moment that never can be repeated again...

How was it before the storm?

you was the one who bright up my life

we were just like brother and sister..

well that's because we were young...

we know nothing about love..

I like to be your friend...your sister...

we even promise to be FRIEND FOREVER..

we exchange phone number...

we texts all night long..

when we didn't even know what are we talking about...

we listen to mostly same song...

entitle 

BEFORE THE STORM

But as I say...

We were to young to understand the meaning of the song...

suddenly...

the situation happens in our real life...

As the song goes...

I'm standing out in the rain
I need to know if it's over
Cause I will leave you alone
Flooded with all this pain 
Knowing that I'll never hold her 
Like I did before the storm 

This is what you heart says to me...

But if I have the chance again..

I'll definitely say

Standin' out in the rain
Knowing that it's really over
Please don't leave me alone.
I'm flooded with all this pain, 
Knowing that I'll never hold you 
Like I did before the storm

But its too late...

the storm has crash you down..

the moments has flew away..

your kindness and sweet heart has melt away

And now that is left for me is

Trying to keep the lights from going in
And the clouds from ripping out my broken heart
We always say, 
A heart is not a home 
Without the one who gets you through the storm

you already forget how us before this...

and u just don't realize how us nowadays 

where were u right now?

I didn't get to know anything about you..

our connection are close...

But you the one who make a gap out of it.

U promise me with my little finger back then

u will never leave me

but now...

I can see that u tend to forget me...

I still remember that...

U says... promise me whenever u change your phone number...

msg me straight away... I don't want to lost contact with you...

U have to promise me...

it was on a week before our last day on primary school...

and I promise you... I won't change my number...

Until now... I still use that number..

no matter how many people already got that number 

and they keep bothering me...

I just stand still

And my sister said to me..

If people u don't know keep bothering you

just go and buy new number

but I say... I never want to change this number as long as it can still be use...

it is because of u...

no matter how u tend to forget me..

and never texts me...

I'll wait... I'll wait for your promise..

There was never once I try to give up or forget u..

I keep holding on my hope that u will get back like before...

Because saying goodbye is hard...

and if I did...

I'm sure tears will come out...

I'll only let the tears come out when the hopes really gone...

when that time will come??

haha For SURE when u are married..

that time my hopes on you will go away by it own..

so don't worry...

I won't bother... just remember...

Your memory will still be here...

in my tiny little <3 

If u need to know something about our past...

come and ask me..

If u still remember me...

I'll definitely tell the whole story of our life...

every promise that we made...

And how we cry over a fight that might bring separation to us..

haha... do you still remember?

that was when we are in grade 1.. yup 7 years old...

we started to know the meaning of friendship since the year of 7th..

and how was our class teacher reaction that time??

yes... she said.. I don't know why u both crying..

and I don't know who's to blame here...

Its because when the teacher's ask us...

who made u cry?

we both look at each other and cry...

without any word to explain we just keep on crying...

But I know in heart...

I just afraid to lose you as a friend...

and whenever I think about that incidents...

I easily shed tears out...

because only now I know the reason why...

*Before the storm is a song which me and him sing together as the year end in our year 6 when we both was 12 years old... in 2009... after we've taken our UPSR exam... we have a free time about 1 to 2 month I don't really remember... we used to bring cellphone to school...and our phone include that song in it... so one day... we are in the class... playing it and singing duet... without taking care of the class pupils... 

But now we are in separate school... and I don't barely know his condition right now... :')