No other Hope... :'(

Just  

And I hope it was YOU~

That Man...

Hello guyss...girls what ever...

As I promise on fb today... I want to post about that man ...as shown above....

caakkk~~... why that man? why not that girl? oh my... I'm a GIRL for sure... argh what ever... just read~

First of all... I really have full courage to talk about that man... and I don't care about mentioning his status in my life... even his name... but name is too much I though... as long as I mention his status I'm sure he know it is him right after he read it... I really3 wish he'll read this..or I'll make him do...muuahahhahaha....ok lets begin now..

I know a man... who is CARING to everybody that around him.... he said once that he love everyone... he's lovable boy... sweet at the same time... once u get his love... then u'll get his sweetness...

He's also a soft-heart boy... He understand how women or girl doesn't like being scold... Being beaten... or else... he said... heyy come on laa... that's not gentleman... haha.. because of that he never lay even a finger on me... even when he angry because of my naughty behavior he would mad at me in a funny way but strict... haha... aaaipp22... haha

He definitely reproach me in a better way... like talk to me slowly.... advice me... in a appropriate way....
And of cause I listen to every advice that being given... it just that I like to see it when he's mad and sulking... hahhaha... childish muuchh... actually I do everything that being told...

And what I admired most is... he is a PATIENT boy.... why? even though I've made lots of mistake... and wrong to him... he still wanna forgive me...and giving me second third even fourth chance to improve my self... the way I study and all... he is such a nice.......

UNCLE 

to me.... he is really a wonderful, caring and patient uncle I ever had... and I never regret a second for having him in my life... he said forgive him for not being the best... yeah... he is not the best at all... but he should know that he is

GREAT!!!

MAGNIFICENT!!!

AND THE BEST IS

HANDSOME!!! 

UNCLE IN THE UNIVERSE...

like hello... I never dream of having such an uncle like that when I'm just a normal kid... yeah...not so normal from your point of view... what I wanna tell u all here are.... I really have so much fun playing with him even through the cyber world....every night... he is such a funny uncle that stand beyond my age and understand me well... he got every solution for my problem... and ALHAMDULLILAH... all my problem always settle after listen to his advice... and FOLLOW what he told me to...

I admit even sometime I feel like he's abandoning me like others did... but after got his chat or msg that feelings go away just like that... and here... I would like to say.. I'm sorry for being like this...act like this... the truth is... every advice that u gave... works well... except for the back pain thingy.... I work on that later... as I said on fb... I've ask father to take me for an MC... but he refuse... :'( so I just have to bear with it laa... uncle... don't mad at me anymore... as what I told u... I wouldn't let my self jump into such a chronic illness... or else... you'll be right there next to me with a gun.... ZZEEERRRRRPPPPPPP!!!


I'm scared to death by reading that sentence okay.... -_-'

so...UNCLE!! TRUST ME IF U CAN!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA! okay seriously... please trust me.. ^_^

Realize

Hello there...yes you there...
wanna hear a story? bhaha from who? of cause from me... Idiots...

I'm a lonely girl... why? Because lonely laa silly...
Right now

If I have to talk.. I'll rather shout...

If I have to shout...I'll rather scream

If I have to scream... I'll choose to cry...

If I want to cry...maybe I should cry out loud....

the pain of missing them... I just can't hold it back anymore

I miss them like C.R.A.Z.Y...

These burden are tooo much to carry... I can't stand it anymore... every time I'm thinking of them... I keep saying to my heart that... heeyy don't cry.... they go to further their study... they are busy... but they still remember you though... But the ego is just too strong... it go against what my heart says... it keep telling me that... huh! they don't even remember you!... they got new friend... what's the point of remembering you... 

waaaa... I really3 wanna cry... But only if I can cry in front of them... on her shoulder... damn I miss that moment... crying in front of the people that u love... just gonna make you happy again... U don't have to be strong in front of them... just show your inner self... If they love you... they'll accept who u are no matter how weak you are...

Just what did I did wrong??? I know I'm a bit spoil... but that's how I am since a little baby... I get closer to someone I know easily... every people that I know... I'll just straight away think them as my family... because of that I'm a bit spoil and like to seek attention from them... I NEED THEM...

:'( Why I got punished with this kind of life? I got perfect family... completely perfect... from my point of view of cause... but I still feel like lacking of L.O.V.E ....maybe because I'M DIFFERENT...

and I realize that... the people that I LOVE always disappear from me...slowly~...

lets just CRY...ok... bubyee... I need some time... :')

Before the storm

hello... now is currently 1.58 a.m

its raining drizzle outside...
suddenly I start to think about the people...that I love... and every moments with them...
A moment that never can be repeated again...

How was it before the storm?

you was the one who bright up my life

we were just like brother and sister..

well that's because we were young...

we know nothing about love..

I like to be your friend...your sister...

we even promise to be FRIEND FOREVER..

we exchange phone number...

we texts all night long..

when we didn't even know what are we talking about...

we listen to mostly same song...

entitle 

BEFORE THE STORM

But as I say...

We were to young to understand the meaning of the song...

suddenly...

the situation happens in our real life...

As the song goes...

I'm standing out in the rain
I need to know if it's over
Cause I will leave you alone
Flooded with all this pain 
Knowing that I'll never hold her 
Like I did before the storm 

This is what you heart says to me...

But if I have the chance again..

I'll definitely say

Standin' out in the rain
Knowing that it's really over
Please don't leave me alone.
I'm flooded with all this pain, 
Knowing that I'll never hold you 
Like I did before the storm

But its too late...

the storm has crash you down..

the moments has flew away..

your kindness and sweet heart has melt away

And now that is left for me is

Trying to keep the lights from going in
And the clouds from ripping out my broken heart
We always say, 
A heart is not a home 
Without the one who gets you through the storm

you already forget how us before this...

and u just don't realize how us nowadays 

where were u right now?

I didn't get to know anything about you..

our connection are close...

But you the one who make a gap out of it.

U promise me with my little finger back then

u will never leave me

but now...

I can see that u tend to forget me...

I still remember that...

U says... promise me whenever u change your phone number...

msg me straight away... I don't want to lost contact with you...

U have to promise me...

it was on a week before our last day on primary school...

and I promise you... I won't change my number...

Until now... I still use that number..

no matter how many people already got that number 

and they keep bothering me...

I just stand still

And my sister said to me..

If people u don't know keep bothering you

just go and buy new number

but I say... I never want to change this number as long as it can still be use...

it is because of u...

no matter how u tend to forget me..

and never texts me...

I'll wait... I'll wait for your promise..

There was never once I try to give up or forget u..

I keep holding on my hope that u will get back like before...

Because saying goodbye is hard...

and if I did...

I'm sure tears will come out...

I'll only let the tears come out when the hopes really gone...

when that time will come??

haha For SURE when u are married..

that time my hopes on you will go away by it own..

so don't worry...

I won't bother... just remember...

Your memory will still be here...

in my tiny little <3 

If u need to know something about our past...

come and ask me..

If u still remember me...

I'll definitely tell the whole story of our life...

every promise that we made...

And how we cry over a fight that might bring separation to us..

haha... do you still remember?

that was when we are in grade 1.. yup 7 years old...

we started to know the meaning of friendship since the year of 7th..

and how was our class teacher reaction that time??

yes... she said.. I don't know why u both crying..

and I don't know who's to blame here...

Its because when the teacher's ask us...

who made u cry?

we both look at each other and cry...

without any word to explain we just keep on crying...

But I know in heart...

I just afraid to lose you as a friend...

and whenever I think about that incidents...

I easily shed tears out...

because only now I know the reason why...

*Before the storm is a song which me and him sing together as the year end in our year 6 when we both was 12 years old... in 2009... after we've taken our UPSR exam... we have a free time about 1 to 2 month I don't really remember... we used to bring cellphone to school...and our phone include that song in it... so one day... we are in the class... playing it and singing duet... without taking care of the class pupils... 

But now we are in separate school... and I don't barely know his condition right now... :')