Sorry~! :"(

aaarghhh!!! I'm really really really sorry... I know I was very very very careless... how can I sleep after make a date? well Its not really a date... its just a promise that I make to have some time with you... again I'm sorry.... If u were really there at the right time waiting for me.... I'M REALLY SORRY... (oh tears starting again) I just don't know what to do right now...

at what time now? yeah 3 am to 4.... and I'm full with guilt.... I'm really sorry... these day my head just full with your name only!!... I know that I said I wanna forget you.. but infact I can't! why U do this to me? It is really easy to forget me!?

How can u do that? I'm having hard time here....how come u can just come n go in my life like that? teach me how to forget? by doing these thing its already make me guilt.... then do u think its is easy to let u go? hmmm.... I just cannot figure out your thoughts...

DREAM.....

don't ever say about it... I have it almost like EVERYDAY... why this is happening to me? is it really that you are leaving me? they all say there's nothing to think about... he's okay... he's just buzy maybe... he'll text u soon... he'll meet you soon... yeah SOON....

HOPE....

are there still a piece of hope for me? after I forget about tonight... I don't know what to do... text you and say sorry? what if u not even be there? that will be embarass me... But what if u really been there tonight? arrghh I don't know.... :'(

FORGET

I really really really wish I can forget you... But forgetting you need soo much time... maybe 2 years... or more than that.. But for you... you only took 2 hours huh? Is it because we only have 2 days moment? arghh! things getting complicated to me... whats the point of living anymore... I don't have objectif in my life anymore...

SUPPORTER

an objectif must have supporters behind.... at least 1... but I got NOone.... :"(
How worst my life can be after this?

CONNECTION....

between us there's no way to connect anymore... fb... you've block me... in fon... you've ignore me... in osu! I have left you alone (again I'm really really sorry) In skype I don't know what happen there.... where can we communicate?! tell me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GIVE UP

should I give up on you? HOW? forget it.... it just not too EASY... when you think about someone in every OXYGEN that u breath in... it is really not easy to stop thinking..unless u wanna die already... that time u wont need any OXYGEN.... :'(