We touch people hearts...

awwwuuu hello readers...

I want to write today... huh? why today? does this girl don't have tomorrow?? hello... like I care... tomorrow never die bebeh~~... okay2.... seriously I need to write it today...because it happen today la... don't want u all to miss the exciting story...

okay2... actually it's about today English Drama Competition... huhuhuhu... for the first time I participate in this event... so... when we all rehearsal I was very sure that I can do it... But in my mind... I already know that I have a MAJOR problem.. what is it?? S.T.A.G.E.N.E.R.V.E crazy right??

But then teacher said... ooh u narrator only...u'll be sitting down there...with the audio man...And I was like... thank god...and u can look at the script.... ^_^ BUT!!! today everything change... >_<  Fauzul!! u have to be on the stage... and u can't look at the script!...

And that time... I cannot feel my feet... my heart stop pumping... I knew this will happen... And I hate it... I try to be calm but I can't.... :'( almost want to cry... but my friend keep comforting me.... they escort me well...

Finally, its time... I go on the stage with a major problem and mess in my head... but still a tiny brave...huhuh... then... suddenly after I read my script... I noticed that the actor and actress which is my friend change the acting without telling me!!!...

But its something good...why?? suddenly my friend come out as she is crying... with TRUE TEARS ok... and I was like...oh my god she's crying... and I was touched that time... I almost!! cry... my eyes get teary... dammm.... huhuhu....

But at the end... I saw something that make me smile... WHAT IS IT?? the Audience is CRYING!!! that's was great.... the chance of winning is there...

But unfortunately.... we lose... at the place of 5th.... its okay... because I think our drama is the best... just because we are not in TOP SCHOOL in KEDAH...we can't win... haishh... ok2 let it be... things has happen already... and we happy doing it...

Ouh2... at the competition which is held at our school as the host.... we meet participant from SMKLANGGAR... they are sporting... I like...hahaha and funny guy.... and they know someone like you!! huhuhuh... tettt stop it... that's for other entry maybe :P hahahha stop it fau...

so that the end of today story... its a tradition in a competition... sometime we might win..and sometime the trophy aren't for us... accept the fate willingly and smile broadly~ :D

Before the drama begin (blow balloon to calm down..haha)

Once the curtains is open....

Hello there readers....

waaa dust2 everywhere in this bluewish blog... sweap away the dust...lets sprinkle the pixies dust... muahahaah... kiss a bit... muahss... :* miss this blog where I always share and care about others...

sorry2... its has been long gap... since my last entry... why22?? It been a buzy week for me... I have an event which named MACA 2012... as a choir singer... lalala~ :P and finally its end... what a relieve,...

But after the event finished... I still have one more thing to settle with... ENGLISH DRAMA COMPETITION... damm... tired2... althought I'm just a narrator... but sometime narrator can be every character... like when we practice...the hero not there... I have to replace... n so on...

But its great that I enjoyed it... so its doesn't burden me much.... my biggest problem isssss... I HAVE STAGE NERVE... how do I settle with that?? the competition is just around the corner... ohmegooshhh.....



I'll try to overcome it okay... hope soo... hurmm... now what I want to story aa?? no idea... nothing cross my mind right now... awwwuuu... I'm very2 tired nowday... just like old people already....

Oh2... this year Eid... I was thinking of going to my ex teacher's house.... I miss her soooo much... she like my mother's biscuits very much... she adore it... but this time... I thought maybe I can make it myself and give it to her when I go to her house this Eid... wooahhh... great!!!...I'll make the best among the best!... :)

she the one who taught me English and to be fluent in it... see my english here?? wahahah don't be proud of it... not good!...

well I guess thats the end of our story.. <--- song lyrics... hahah~ soo... bubyee readers... Just this that I can give for now... keep looking forward for my story okayss... adios bebeh~~

p/s: Once the show curtains is open... there's no stepping back... :)

Yesterday was unexpected...

Well hello readers,

yesterday was a blasts!! I don't know why... but I just keep smiling without reason... weird right... smile smile smile... every moment of the rehearsal day... Even my back hurts... I still smiling... But then... the rehearsal part come to the tribute part... which the show some video of arwah cikgu nordin... my SC teacher... first I still smile....

But then,,.. when they start to show his picture... tears start to fall... I thought it just one calm tear.... But suddenly it started to process more tears to fall.... ohmegoshhh....

Still want to wait in that hall aa??? of coz not... Hastily I woke up from my seat and ran outside... and cry alone at the side of the hall...

But! Jeng jeng jeng.... suddenly... teacher Teh come maaa.. And I was like.... ohmegosh2.... what to say if she ask... then she said... fauzul can u help me to call siti ********.... YES TEACHER SUREE.... I was like... CAN'T SHE SEE THAT I'M CRYING! spoil the mood... hadoii...

Then... I go back into the hall and I just subdued my head all the way until the video ends... coz I can't resist myself to watch it... huwaaa...

But I'm a girl who can just get happy easily... after that video finished I wipe my tears and smile again... so my friend wont know that I have cry before... And the smile continue until the midnight.... before I slept... what a GREAT DAY RIGHT...

HERE I WOULD LIKE TO SAY THANK U TO TEACHER... BECAUSE OF U I HAVE TO STOP CRYING TO CALL OUT THE GIRL FOR U... THANK U MAAA... TOCEY2... =_=' (ANNOYED)

That Prince....(already forgotten)

Well hello readers,

today, I really really wanna tell u guys or girls whatever... a story about a man...that has ever came into my life... But suddenly he change... so I have to forget him... I thought it would be hard for me... But it turns out well.... so lets the intro begin....

Once upon a time, awww... there was a prince... called... prince kim (not the real name)...live in a kingdom name Fau's world... he rules the country... he rules this one woman hearts... by his kindness.....Sort of

- giving her nice smile... :D
- giving her nice attension...
-treat her very well...
-be there whenever she hurts...
-and lots of sacrifices...

Until then... Fau was really fell in love with the prince... because the way he treat her... like a real man... But... one day... the prince had to undergo a surgery.... Fau thought it will be the last time she meet her prince... one day... she cried a lot infront of him... then he asked... why... why u cried dear... Fau just said... nothing...then he said... tell me.. if there something I can help with... Then Fau wipe away the tears cause the only one who know her problem is herself.... :'( sad one...

Since that day... the prince treat him extra well... he always give him a massage whenever she needs it... even if she said... its okay... he will do it so... they we soo happy together... they like living in their own world... Then the time has come... its was the time that prince has to go... Fau really afraid of losing him...

She pray and keep pray... finally the result was good... he's fine... and all went smoothly... then he came back to the kingdom... But at that time it was school break... about 2 month... they live far apart... But yet... they still want to meet... because they cannot stand the missing time... they meet almost every week...

The prince never feel bored whenever he has to accompany Fau... whenever she give him a call.. he would answer and come to the place she told him to... then one day.... Fau really alone and need friend...or precisely need him... so Fau give him a call... and he said.. he had a fever... so Fau just said... okay then... get well soon...get some rest now...

So Fau just wander around the shopping complex... but suddenly.. she got a call from him... she answer it... and he asked... where r u now? and Fau said... I'm in pacific laa... why? Look up now... and Fau saw him smiling... even it was a weak smile... I'm happy but in the same time guilty... Then I ran to him... and asked... why did u come... u said u had fever... I come because... U the one who called me... how can I ignored that... :)

Tears started to fall... I'm touched... Look... He's there... beside me... shivering.... I wish I could hug him and give him warmness feeling... but I can't... It was a day that I will remember even that I've forgot him... the day will still be alive in my mind... :') thanks...

But why I have to forget him? haha... U wouldn't thought right... the nice and kind prince... would turn into evil and ruthless prince... why? I tell u please believe me...

There was a day when... I make a last minute plan... to go out... and played bowling... then I meet my uncle there... he asked me... why come alone... call someone to accompany u... maybe your prince kim... and I said.... huh? prince kim... hurmm... he was not the old prince kim that I know... why? he doesn't have time for me anymore... just give him a call and try la...

Then I went somewhere... and call him... I don't want my uncle to hear our conversation... then... I'm very lucky cause he picked up the fon... I ask him... hey.. do u wanna hangout like before? it as been so long since our last hangout right.... then... he shouted at me and say.... hey... if u wanna go out...leave me alone... dont asked me... to go with you... ohmaigaddd... really shocked that time...

where my prince go... where prince kim that I know? and that time tears started to fall... because... it was at the same place where he went when he had a fever back then... I never thought that great moment and sad moment will happen at the same place... its great then... I only have to go to one place to remember precisely both moment... :') because of that I started to forget you day by day....

sorry... but I need someone who can treat me well and will always do that... not just for a while... but a love that everlasting.... U have love me... but it just for a meantime... I know u will find someone better... :')

Your love once...
Fau~~~ <3

For Now Sweet Dream Do Exist...

huuarrgghh!! how to tell aa? lastnight... I end up smile while sleeping... well... It was a hard day because that time suddenly our village faces blackout.... thanks God it is not hot day... cold breeze that totally good.... but the main problem is the mosquito!! hate it... I tried to be patient with them... hahaha... Finally I fall a sleep... then at 5 am I woke up in a shock situasion..... arghh my head... suddenly I got a headache...

Then slowly I realize that the blackout has stop... weeheeww.... relieve one....In the dizziness i manage to get up... and slowly walk towards my room... after get into my room... I immedietly lay down...

After that.....

I started my SWEET DREAM!! awwww.... excited...maaa... okay2... starting noww... remember readers... IT JUST A SWEETDREAM... please no rumors... let me be happy for a while.... aaawwuuu.... :D
I was a WIFE! okay... look very grateful huh? read moree

I was a wife that NEVER WANT TO MARRIED MY HUSBAND! huaa... force marriage... cool2..
we do live in a house... and one room and scaryly ONE BED.... aigooo..... But we do our own things and never talk to each other...so sad maA? yeahh... really sad... when I thought about it yea I feel really sad... but when I dreamt it... It was my ego... hahaha

Eventhough we doing our own works and things.... we keep bump into each other... what a fate right... first our expression wasn't good... But suddenly after 1 month (omoo how many hours did I slept haha) the wife which is me! started to fall in her husband heart... aaaww....

then they started to tolerate to each other... and guess what they do happy... But remember... its a force marriage... under contract and agreement... (<---cliche) 1 month after that they have to apart...

then lets skip skip skip.... yaaahhh finally the day has come... I have to leave the beautiful house... nice and comfort bed room... and nice looking husband... huwaaa.... don't let it happen in real world maaa....
on that day I cry... so sad... I just come and go into the bed room... it has sooo many memories... haaa don't think the negative one! our memories there is about late night chating... we use to talk in there... when both of us went home from work... and lastly fall a sleep in his arm.... huwaaa... tears tears tears....

then my mother in law noticed that I love my husband so much and she can't do anything... she begins to cry,... good mother in law maa... :) after being divorce... I just lock my heart.... don't want to give it to any man...

But then! haa... this is the sweetness come... my mother in law suddenly call me to meet her... excited n scary for a moment... when we meet.. she said this...

fau... I know u love him so much... I can see that on the day u leave the house... now I'm asking you dear... did u still love him... (tears tears tears) yes mama... I still love abg ****** (the count of * doesn't represent the true name ok) ok then... if u still love abg **** just wait 1 month... and then u both can announce your marriage again... O_O really!! oh thank u mommy... (from mama to mommy haha)

Finally after 1 month waiting... its officially... I'm officially with my husband...the one that I love the one that I hate before.. NICE ONE!

So thats the end of my SWEETDREAM... yeah... soooooooo sweet... here I would like to thanks to the TNB crewss because make my house blackout... hisshh2no laah...huhuh... crazy and hyper sometime... get to live with that...  so adioss reader... enjoy my sweetdream tales... really tails tails tails aaa...

Sorry~! :"(

aaarghhh!!! I'm really really really sorry... I know I was very very very careless... how can I sleep after make a date? well Its not really a date... its just a promise that I make to have some time with you... again I'm sorry.... If u were really there at the right time waiting for me.... I'M REALLY SORRY... (oh tears starting again) I just don't know what to do right now...

at what time now? yeah 3 am to 4.... and I'm full with guilt.... I'm really sorry... these day my head just full with your name only!!... I know that I said I wanna forget you.. but infact I can't! why U do this to me? It is really easy to forget me!?

How can u do that? I'm having hard time here....how come u can just come n go in my life like that? teach me how to forget? by doing these thing its already make me guilt.... then do u think its is easy to let u go? hmmm.... I just cannot figure out your thoughts...

DREAM.....

don't ever say about it... I have it almost like EVERYDAY... why this is happening to me? is it really that you are leaving me? they all say there's nothing to think about... he's okay... he's just buzy maybe... he'll text u soon... he'll meet you soon... yeah SOON....

HOPE....

are there still a piece of hope for me? after I forget about tonight... I don't know what to do... text you and say sorry? what if u not even be there? that will be embarass me... But what if u really been there tonight? arrghh I don't know.... :'(

FORGET

I really really really wish I can forget you... But forgetting you need soo much time... maybe 2 years... or more than that.. But for you... you only took 2 hours huh? Is it because we only have 2 days moment? arghh! things getting complicated to me... whats the point of living anymore... I don't have objectif in my life anymore...

SUPPORTER

an objectif must have supporters behind.... at least 1... but I got NOone.... :"(
How worst my life can be after this?

CONNECTION....

between us there's no way to connect anymore... fb... you've block me... in fon... you've ignore me... in osu! I have left you alone (again I'm really really sorry) In skype I don't know what happen there.... where can we communicate?! tell me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GIVE UP

should I give up on you? HOW? forget it.... it just not too EASY... when you think about someone in every OXYGEN that u breath in... it is really not easy to stop thinking..unless u wanna die already... that time u wont need any OXYGEN.... :'(

You Are Just My Dream... :')

this is what i really feel... are u just my dream that fade away?? don't know... i think laa... because of that i didn't want to believe others n give so much fate in it... enjoy... :')


[CHORUS: SAM] 
I was thinkin about you, 
Thinkin about me, Thinkin about us, 
What we gonna be? Open my eyes, 
It was only just a dream. 

[CHRISTINA] 
Travel back, down that road. 
Will you come back, No one knows. 
I realize, it was only just a dream. 

[VERSE 1: SAM] 
I was at the top and I was like I'm at the basement. 
Number one spot and now you found your a replacement. 
I swear now that I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby. 

Now you ain't around, baby I can't think. 
I shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring. 
Cuz I can still feel it in the air. 
I see your pretty face run my fingers through your hair. 

My lover, my life. 
My baby, my wife. 
You left me, I'm tied. 
Cause I knew that it just ain't right. 

[CHORUS: BOTH] 
I was thinkin about you, 
Thinkin about me, Thinkin about us, 
What we gonna be? Open my eyes, 
It was only just a dream. 

Travel back, down that road. 
Will you come back, No one knows. 
I realize, it was only just a dream. 

[VERSE 2: CHRISTINA] 
When I'm ridin I swear I see your face at every turn. 
I'm tryin to get my usher over, but I can let it burn. 
And I just hope you notice your the only one I yearn for. 
No wonder I'll be missing when I learn? 
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/s/sam+tsui+christina+grimmie/just+a+dream_20900809.html ] 
Didn't give you all my love, 
I guess now I got my payback. 
Now I'm in the club thinkin all about you baby. 
Hey, you was so easy to love. But wait, 
I guess that love wasn't enough. 

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone. 
And now I'm wishin that you'd pick up the phone. 
But you made a decision that you wanted to move on. 
Cuz I was wrong. 

[CHORUS: BOTH] 
I was thinkin about you, 
Thinkin about me, Thinkin about us, 
What we gonna be? Open my eyes, 
It was only just a dream. 

Travel back, down that road. 
Will you come back, No one knows. 
I realize, it was only just a dream. 

[BRIDGE: BOTH] 
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up. 
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up. 
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything. 

OOOOHHHHHH. 

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up. 
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up. 
And they're gone and you wish you could give them everything. 

[CHORUS: BOTH] 
I was thinkin about you, 
Thinkin about me, Thinkin about us, 
What we gonna be? Open my eyes, 
It was only just a dream. 

Travel back, down that road. 
Will you come back, No one knows. 
I realize, it was only just a dream. 

I was thinkin about you, 
Thinkin about me, Thinkin about us, 
What we gonna be? Open my eyes, 
It was only just a dream. 

Travel back, down that road. 
Will you come back, No one knows. 
I realize, it was only just a dream. 

Oh hay. 
It was only just a dream.

A Die Signal....

Hey you two!.... how dare u ignore my msg? don't u two know my condition? If that msg was my die signal... don't u both regret it when I'm already gone... want to know why? Well you have to know why!

First... it was the first time I felt very hurt like that...because of that I sent u two a msg... But none of you reply it...

Second... after that disappointment I went to the kitchen to get myself a medicine... but unfortunately there was a stagnant water in the kitchen made by the leaking roof... and i fell.... its really2 hurt.... I think I might DIE there....

So like i said just now... don't regret yourself after u ignore my msg.... let me endure it alone... u two just enjoy you life by reading my msg and put it away....

Dear God... its hurts... :'(

THIS IS EXTREMELY ESPECIALLY FOR YOU TWO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A BUNCH OF DISAPPOINTMENT!!!!!!!!!

Every first would be the Last

 Hurmmmm.... from now on.. can I stop mentioning your name?? I don't know why...but today I just realize that...

our first meet is the last... our first gaze is the last... don't u know? it true...I only have one moment with you..

and I appreciate that....thanks to god I captured it well in my mind.... well I guess its really the best decision to make a blog... because at least I have a place to tell all what I have to go through... even it is a bit hurts by typing and crying alone... but I know my life would come back to this way at last... because i've been like this since I'm a little kid... no one will know when I cry... they just get to see the happy side of me... well I guess back to basic is my new life title.. buried all the loneliness deep in my empty heart...no one will know right....

Pain.... can i handle it?? get to know what I faced its not what other people have... its good to know someone that have the same illness like me... but she can't give me support when she is sick like me... every time i feel the pain... i started to cry... but in that time.. I still beware cause I don't want people to see that I'm suffering... my life getting hard day by day... but in each day... I keep read through people story... they all gets to have their happy ending... but mine? just suck all the way there...it just to hurt to endure it alone..

But what more can I ask when nothing being fulfill... everything that i wish just when silence...in the same time...someone is very happy with their life.....that's really make me hurt....I always be the one who like to ask... 'care to share?' but now... its true...that I'm really nothing in everyone life... so... let me be the one that got away... I wish you be happy with your life...

WHAT? STILL WISHING? no no no I'll PRAY that you will live happily with your new life... :')

It is true that u say... who me to decide what will happen in my life...its god works..

but to make yourself clear... it is me to decide how my future will be paint... 

don't you know? our future being fate by our way...

so if u see my way of living... u would understand how bright my future will be... without someone supporting from behind i don't think that i have enough strength..

sorry

Acting is the greatest answer to my loneliness that I have found.
Claire Danes

I Did What U Ask Me To~ ;)

I think!! i think!! I think I already found him!!!...huargghhh!!! <---excited scream out loud!!!.... he's really not someone like you...cause u say...never gonna find some one like you... haha...so... suddenly someONE came into my life.... soo sweetly... but! i don't want to get so over excited or happy for so early... let see how things work first... is it true or just my feeling... if its true... that he has fall for me.... then i'll rather accept him... hello! i don't need handsome man ok.... I just need :-

*Good man

*Respectful man

*Kind indeed...

*Know how to TREAT WOMEN NICELY~


If yes he like me... I think... i have made him fallen for me... ^_^
hahaha... lets wait n see... happy~ always... <3