if i could just

aaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

*scream my problems away... :'(

Please just one moment

ya you! yes you. the one that I gave the link to.

Assalamualaikumwarrahmatullahhiwabarakatuh...

Please!...please don't close this window. I just need one last time, one moment. I wish you to stay put your pair of eye on this not so creative and pitiful blog. Just a moment to clear things out. I've put all my afford and braveness to post this ok!...

You were right... Dang! why you were always right? hmmm. You were right that I should venture science world first. You were right about the 'you have to stand for about 6 hours in a day when you're in baking or cooking field' you have to work harder. It might be painful. you were right about I can apply for tesl if i want in future. Lastly you were right that we are not 8 years gap (ok exaggerate much!)

you were absolutely right. no doubt. can't deny. Actually, for all this day I've tried to forget you. So many way just to forget you. And people around me, they just keep on saying forget him, he has abandon you from his life, he doesn't care about you anymore la. I've tried but I still have your fon number, your old messages. Your word which is 'I'll keep watching you from far' it is stupid if a person find out tht i holding on something like that... But I do!.For no reason. So I think, think, think and keep thinking, just why I can't seem to forget you. After all those puzzle have been solve, on 13/7/13 I just realize tht. (this is the hardest part) I might have I repeat might have fallen for you. Yaa wait!... don't close yet!...

I'm sorry! I can't help it. I wanna tell you that I inadvertently without attention ter ok terrfallen in love with your word, your advice, your caring attitude and lastly with you. And maybe this is the reason why I can't seem to forget you.

ya ya, before this many people have thought the same thing that I might have fallen in love with you. But yeah I keep on denying it. But don't worry, after I realize the fact about loving you I also realize tht even if I become brave and confess it in front of you. Its not gonna work between us.

You were like super special guy. Even the nature has decide that human are not perfect. You are like almost perfect. I can't say that you are perfect it is because it will be such a lie then. And I'm nothing. So i guess the word 'reject you' has been written on your face to be pointed to me.

Yeah so with all the guts and braveness tht i have... I've admit it.. So I hope after this I can finally forget you. change my number and yes keep on trying to forget you dear mr. Indeed no lie you're the best supportive man I've ever knew. I bet your friends and family could stay smile while they still get to breath around you. And I wish I could be one of them.

Thank you for everything. For everytime that u have been thru. just to give me a lesson and how to grow up and become stronger. while facing the big bad world~... thanks for believe in me. thank you for giving me hope.

I admit that I really anticipated my birthday this year. who know that I might get a wish from you right? But naaahh, forget it. Xnak mengharap lg dah. I don't know our ending or our future right so happy birthday in advance mr... cause we might not have tomorrow.. xlama lg dah~

without word you come into my life

without word you slowly disappear from my life

you were there when I'm crying over someone.

You should'n be here when i'm crying over you :)

If I'm strong enough this might be the last post about you

You have said before to me. ' sweet x org buat blog utk awek dia?'

I cannot afford a blog for you, I guess 1 post is just enough base on my level.

So bubye, live happily, please forgive me and help me forget you

Assalamualaikum, uncle. 

a quick but lovely post.

Well hello there!... peeps!... on last Wednesday I went out to hang around with my friend... although I'm already move out to another school I still can't forget them and never ever forget them... so we were hanging around and chill together from one to another restaurant... yeah we all food lover!!...

we started the day at the public library located in the heart of the alor star city... yaaawww... study timee... (sangat!) about a few hours later... one of us just can't stand the temptation of mcd sundae strawberry which has been calling his name!!... ahakss... 

so we head out to CP... don't mention it..ahah.... 

we head to D'apple and do some shout out for the karaoke superior room...

ahaks... (back home im being diagnose on tonsil!) 

after that crazy moment... we went to syamim's favor place!!...

McD!! Sundae strawberry peeps!!...

he's craving for sooo longg....

 then head to p.hainan.. lunch time...

normal food nothing great nothing new... just that pak cik

makin lama makin meeaaaaw! geram nyah!... hahaha

xreti sabor betul...

then we travel around that mall...

wahh travel gi tu... besar ke? hahaha

we even make our own cotton candy...

hahahha 

then we go for bowling!!!!! 

only 1 game to lepas gian laa..

lama xmain... puas la jugak..

when we niat to enjoy..

sure we enjoy...but the other 2 donnoo... :P

then tour around...again and again and again...

then lapar balik derrghh...

head out to Secret's!

haaa friends... order what u want...

suma muke sedihh... takut... fau bayar...

rase besalah... buat pasal xnak makan... 

ape punya gile aku nak makan sorang datang smpai 4 org?

order jerr its on me... haa sume senyum kambeng!...

then I shall lets the pic do the talk... 

enjoy!

us!...

xnampak sgt ler... tue la blog leh letak pic kecik2 je.  :(

Tadaa!! malu2 tapi mahu kan diorang nie..janji bahagialah kawan~

polaroid lover!! say cheesee!!... :D

= well i guess I should stop now cause in a few minute from now I'm going back to my hostel there... hellno!!... but I have to accept the path that I've choose.. right? soo friends... If my time on earth weren't enough, may I ask a permission from now to just stay deep in your every heart?  :'D 

#Eily nick  #Our Ace  #Abg Hariz  #Men of the day  #SR  #McD  #D'Apple  #CP  #Polaroid lover! <3

music do speaks sometime

It's like he doesn't hear a word I say

His mind is somewhere far away

And I don't know how to get there

It's like

All he wants is to chill out

He makes me wanna pull all my hair out

Like he doesn't even care

You and me,

We're face to face

But we don't see eye to eye

Like fire and rain

You can drive me insane

But I can't stay mad at you for anything

We're Venus and Mars

We're like different stars 

But you're the harmony to every song I sing

And I wouldn't change a thing

He's always trying to save the day

Just wanna let my music play

He's all or nothing

But my feelings never change

I try to read his mind

He tries to pick a fight

To get attention

That's what all of my friends say

You and me

We're face to face

But we don't see eye to eye

Like fire and rain

You can drive me insane

But I can't stay mad at you for anything

We're Venus and Mars

We're like different stars

But you're the harmony to every song I sing

And I wouldn't change a thing

When I'm yes, he's no

When I hold on, he just lets go

We're perfectly imperfect

But I wouldn't change a thing, no

We're like fire and rain

You can drive me insane

But I can't stay mad at you for anything

We're Venus and Mars

We're like different stars

But you're the harmony to every song I sing

And I wouldn't change a thing

But I can't stay mad at you for anything

We're Venus and Mars

We're like different stars 

But you're the harmony to every song I sing

And I wouldn't change a

Wouldn't change a thing

I wouldn't change a thing..

-Awuuushhh so long time not change a lyric laaa.... when I was in the primary school... I always change the main person in a lyric such as... from a song to a girl... I change it to a song for a boy that I admire... kah3... sooo suuweeet...  but I only change Jonas brother song laa... they r amazing... :D SOO this song I've change to??? ................. If u r the one... then u'll feel it... adios! 

This soul...

This soul...

This soul has been accepted to enter a collage that she want...

This soul has went thru what she really wish for...

this soul  has feel what is about to live in hostel life....

this soul has come to a path where she regret for choosing it...

but what's left there for her to be done?

when every step has been take... she can't go back and twist the time..

this soul realize that its hard...

to really stand and walk on this earth....

which mean is to fight the gravity and stand strong!...

but this soul also has promise to herself...

that she'll never back down, scream or shout...

even if its hurts, painful or had teary eyes every night..

this soul will keep on standing and walking on this earth 

Till the gravity pull her down and kneel on the cold hard ground

she'll never give up on her study..

yeah even if its hurts, she know she can do this!

sometimes this thing cross this miserable mind...

why the world has to picked on somebody?... 

why the world has to put ranks on people?

whether they are rich,poor,smart,stupid,rude,arrogant, or humble.

this soul can't seems to understand the purpose of this ranks...

Its really hard for her... as who she is....

when she is in her old school...among the smartest people on earth

she feel sooo stupid and being left out...

and now when she entered this collage, their results are just average

but then she get picked on because of her result... 

what 's the world really want from her??

you know that now she's all alone?? 

being left out because of the way she's thinking, the way she's talking...

its hurts on the inside, but who cares right?

a force smile being give out everyday , and every second of her life

every minute this things keep rolling in her mind...

she feel so miserable...

speechless and hopeless....

*this soul just can't accept how the world treated people like her... 

  but its good that she still believe in God gift in the hereafter... 

so she let people hate her now, its better than being hate by her own creator the one and only Allah S.W.T

:') stay strong Fau...u can do it!