I wish or I determined?

I wish... to be healthy like when I'm about 3-4 years old until 10 years old ago... I was a healthy and active girl in SOCCER maaa.... I love soccer verrryy much! like much!...

but everything change when I'm in the age of 11... :'( I'm becoming a weak and easily injured little girl... :'( since that day... I've stop all my activities... badminton... ping pong, soccer and skipping... so I really3 wish I could be back to how I was before this... but its all god fate..and I accept it all... :')

now I'm in the age of 14 going to 15 this august... august baby... :D

ohohoho... next is what I determined to do within this year...

I WANT TO DO A M.C!!! (medical check up)

my health is getting worst day by day laaa...

I though maybe I've got something wrong somewhere with my waist/ backbone...

that area always ache whenever I sit for a long time... :'( 

like an old woman... so sad...

So according to that... I really3... wanna do some x-ray and if possible an M.C for my body..

poor body...

just by thinking of it...

make me sad... with who I wanna go to the hospital??

I'm afraid of doctors and all the knife and sword apparatus in the hospital...

ouh about that afraid thing... I got a new story for today.. it happen TODAY at school...

hehe... funny and silly story... ok let me tell u...

29/7/2012

recess time....

My friend enter the class and say to all of us...

the nurse is waiting in the medical room....to check your teeth girls!...

the boy already did their check up during the physical session at 9.00 a.m

so now its the girls turn...

and I asked the boy.. what did they do?

and he told me... my teeth got screwed up...

being drill and what so ever scary thing...

and I was like.... moommmyyy!!!!....

I don't want to go...

then I asked Ili to accompany me...

she said... nothing gonna happen to you laa...

then on the way to go there.. she was like...

haaa they'll screwed you up!!

>_< 

my heart goes like thump2...

heeewww....

then the nurse call my name... arrrrghhh!!!....

afraid much!!!...

then the doctor say...sit...

i sit and just lie down there...

then the doctor start to insert the apparatus in my mouth...

after 3 second only!!!... she said... zero...

done!...

and I was like.. eh?

and Ili was rolling and laughing like a ghost

got a stomachache hahahaha....

damn ili!!... on the way to my class...

ili was the one who's running while laughing and saying this...

I must tell them about u!,... hahaha

urrgghh sister....

so can u see how I'm afraid of the doctor?

much! right....

-E.N.D-

so I'm determined to take the x-ray test and full M.C after PMR...

but who's gonna accompany me??

Papa promise already... but a promise not always can be fulfill right?

its depend on situation...

if we've time. we'll go... but please make it fast...

while I still can stand this pain... :')

I only have papa... my father just take my health easily..

he keep saying...nothing happen laa...

and I was like.... 

HEEeeeellllllpppppp!!!!

its hurt!!...

(but its not that he don't care about me at all, it just that he didn't feel it) 

C:

I'm gonna be strong!!!!

I must be strong!!...

till then... assalam~...

our English session...

helllooo people..

today as I promise... I want to story about my english session on last thursday...

very interesting and fun because we are discussing about...

Should student be banned from bringing mobile phone to school...

list the pro's and con's...

interesting right?

now I want to story to you all about 2 situation...

first while I'm practicing how to present that issue or topic in the english class..

and the second one is what are the pro's and con's that we discuss in session,....

In class recess time...

I'm practicing while discussing with my geniussss friend...

from practicing we move on to more like quarreling about should or should not bring phone to school...

I said should! he said should not...

then I was like.. why u say should not?

because It may cause negative cases like cyber bullying...

and I was like... NO!!

If u think u are a genius one... U will definitely not do that stupid things...

like why bullying the cyber... bully the people laa...

hahahha then we were like.. LOL...

haha its all just a joke that u can get when u are talking or quarreling with FAU...

kelolo~~...

after all the relaxes and practicing time, the bell has rang... and we move to the english language lab...

for english session...

and teacher make a SURPRISE for mee...

weee my group was the FIRST one to present... great!!...

:: claps2 ::

In the English Session....

I was presenting the issue seriously!!...

with satisfaction laa....

and I'm happy about it...

they all vote for the best presenters and it was ME!...

ahahah.... nothing much laa....

thanks friend~~~....weeee

okay now... what I've learn... lets share it...

bringing phone to school...

Pro's

can be use as a parents tracking device...............................................-ohmegosh-

easy to communicate.........public phone alwaysss have problem right?

as a small and electro dictionary.............-no more heavy mr oxford-

Con's

increase discipline cases.............-poor mr.pk hem woo-

misuses the gadget........-might capture the teacher picture-

might involve with police.........-stealing, bully, or fighting and so on-

so....... instead of discussing the pro's and con's...

my group also gave the teacher a suggestion if we still want to bring the phone to school

we must...

create a govern program such as

1 malaysia 1 mobile phone...

muahahha all people got the same mobile phone...

so can decrease the stealing or bullying things~...

weee what type of phone will the govern provide us?

tablet pleasee... as a text book also...

hate the thick reference book... much! >_<

u might notice that... I've started to write in ENGLISH back... huwaa... let it be laa... spoil english or what... because after I write in MALAY... no ONE wants to read my blog... soooo sad maa.... then I've start the just one day... I've got my readers back...^_^....thank u~~.... 

and as u can see.... I'm a bit lazy to put some picture... wahahaha don't have time for it.. PMR is near the corner already... (tengah mintak redha org niee huwaaa)

*wish me luck~ bubyee... till then assalam~

Just one day.

last two days..

so many things had happen...

such as...

ok let me tell in the story one by one...

well if u care to read..or else... move! from here...

hohoho just kidding...

eh mana ada...serius.. xmo baca tekan je next blog kat atas tue haa...

tapi...

bace laa bace laa... pisshh3...

ahaks~...

ok2 sad mood ::ON::

on one fine tired day.... which named MONDAY...
I was heading back from school... and as plan...
I want to accompany my sis to the district clinic near my house...
then straight to the Hospital Sultanah Bahiyah to breastfeed the little baby in the NICU..

BUT!!

a twist and turn situation occur...

at the district clinic the chaotic doctor

straight taking her Blood pressure and squirrel with my sister

she said like this...

x puan , puan kene tolak ke emergency nie klau macam nie

tinggi nie puan... bg laa saya rehat dulu,... saya rushing2 cari tempat doktor mmg laa BP saya naik..

jap g buat second check up... saya duduk pun xsempat...

and she goes like... xboleh puan... klinik dah nak tutup... 4.30...

hello... patient or office hour yg penting nie?

last last.... my sis say...

haa xpa laa saya mmg nak pegi hospital nie... nak Bf anak sy...

dekat NICU... xleh puan...puan kene naik ambulance...

kami xnak tanggung risiko or lepas tanggungjawab,..

like hey... u all already did... =_='

haa cepat laa saya dah stress nie doktor,..

ok yer...

then my dad was like... tam... :P go to the hospital with mieja...

by? ambulance... O.o

ohmegoooshhhh...

ok then... dad say... I will folow u all later on with ibu...

ok off with the ambulance.... llliiiooouuuuu3...

extreme~...

then arrive at the emergency..... 

I have to wait at outside for 2-3 hours like that... 

after that my parents come... and ask... how my sis...

I said... I don't know yet...

she seems normal... the doctor just urrghhh

then my mother enter the room in the emergency....

and said she was ok... they just gave her some medicine and want to record other BP result..

and decide whether she has to admitted or not...

like hell she HATE HOSPITAL...

the nurse are RUDE yaaalll...

and that evening end just like that, and she doesn't get the chance to see her baby...

poor baby...  I was crying by just remember how the story she told me

that on that morning... the baby already starts to play with her mother...

which is my sister.. stay strong baby...

then at about 7.30 we all prepare to 'berbuka puasa' hehe... at the hospital while waiting for her...

then at about 8 pm we all being inform that she asked the doctor to just go home

and the doctor say yes... the doctor at the hospital were very different from the doctor at the district clinic... :P

going home with a feel like a stone on our back which is really tired and burdensome..

we just think about our bed and comforter...

sooooo gooood... and of course our little sister at aunty's house... hehee...

then pick her up... straight to home sweet home...

first thing first is to landing on the soft sofa... soo great....

but after 5 Second!!! I almost sleep!!...

my mother come and say...

check all your things...!! u might lost one of your precious thing...

and I was like... sh** man... I'm to tired to imagine the thought in my mind...

then mummy say... the house has been broke in by the thieves...

I said oh god its true what I'm thinking just now...

no mummy nothing lost...

my sis was like... thank god my Ipad was still here...

the thieve only got time to scatter things in my mother room...

the total lost was like RM7000.00

my dad just go straight to the police station and lodge a report...

then the detective came into my house... hohoho... conan...

ok... I felt like... money is not the main point now...

its was my sister!!...

she then said to my mother....

ibu... kakak serabut laa... macam mana BP xtinggi,... dengan baby dalam NICU, Firdaus (my brother in law)   xtau nak dapat cuti ka dak... nie rumah ceni pulak...

ibu ckap... xyah duk pikiaq laaa esok kena admitted pulak...

cena xyah pikiaq... benda dah jadi depan mata ceni... 

and I was like... aaarghhh!!! heeyy thieve I believe that I know who you are!!...

and I'm sure of it... if I can just punch you in the face!...

I'll take revenge for my sister suffers!!...

that night I call papa... and told him everything... before that Ili call me and asked about the incident 

she told me to rest... how can maaa...

then papa call...

I told him everything and I cried again... I said it all about mieja... I can't stand to see her like that

and papa say... now u cannot cry... u have to support mieja... she need someone... don't ever left her alone

and that night I slept with mieja...

I waited for a long time just to let her sleep first... but then I'm the one who cannot sleep... still in trauma

and afraid the thieve might come back... lastly I slept at almoust 2 a.m... and the next day... my back hurt my head ache... and I can't manage myself to get up...

and I end up sleeping on the sofa at the hospital.... muahahaha... sadisss muchh....

my sis was like... hey why u sleeping here?

last night I couldn't sleep...

why? I'm still afraid and a bit trauma... oh... okay... lets go home...

actually the next morning....mummy let me stay at home and take an mc...

but I'm to scared to sit alone at home.. so I follow mieja to the hospital..

even though I can't enter the NICU.... its okay la

as long as mieja is safe... it'll be ok la...

now already 1 week after the baby was born... but yet.. we still didn't get to see the baby...

she was born pre-matured.. so have to wait until she get her best weight and get out of the NICU....

ohmy... long story right... that the test that Allah S.W.T gave to us a family... in this BULAN MULIA BULAN RAMADHAN... and we accept it with open heart...

even though the lost is big amount... but yet we still can afford to live a better live..

money isn't everything bro... 

stay closed with Allah .S.W.T then you'll feel like you can live forever~

till here... hope to write again soon...

next entry I want to tell u about my english class today... the topic being discuss is...

Should student be banned for bringing mobile phone to school? the Pro's and Con's

That's PMS broo...

haaallluuuu... haaa tengok3...

title dia... that's PMS BROO...

Kekekeke~...

actually yg headache teruk nak mamposs tuee... bukan apa sgt pun...

seperti yg disangka-sangkakan... 

ianya hanyalah PMS sahaja...

eh2 kawe nie duk PMS PMS...

nate gapo tuee...

eh ekleh kelate pulok...

udohh...

PMS stands for Pre-Menstruation Syndrome 

haaa blajar sc kan? tudia lah...

it just that kali nie fau dapat PMS baru..

(wah ade upgrade2 tauu)

selalunya PMS fau ialah demam mengejut yg paling TEROK... dalam 1 bulan... 

which mean setiap bulan lah kan... mesti ada satu minggu fau akan demam tanpa sebab selama....

jeng3....

2 hari je broo... mesti korang xcaya...

cayaa laaa caya laaa... pissh33....

sebab tue klau waa amik cuti demam 2 hari jgn kebil mate yer

wa nazak time tue...

SERIOUS cakap..

demam yg teramat sadiss... sampai xleh bangun

thats my PMS~....

tapi kali nie PMS saya berubah kepda headache yg tahap

nak PECAH KEPALA WEEYYY

sakit nya nauzubillah min zalik sungguh~....

sabor je laa... 

shuuushhhh fau xposa... muahahahah.... thats normal bro kalau wa bagitau dekat blog...

it's just a life menstruation cycle... bukannye MAKSIAT~...

PEACE YYAAAWW~

SALAM RAMADHAN...

WA DAH AIDILFITRI~... 

meeaaaawww~

If I Can...

hello...

today is the 2nd day of fasting on 2012... ya allah...

kau nie dah kenape fau? 

HELP!!!!

I got a headache since yesterday evening... sakit dia... mcm saket gile!

ubat? dah makan... no effect....ish IF I CAN dah habis satu badan nie aku  nak scan or x-ray...

nak x-ray backbone pon banyak ckap... xpayah la~... mmg x laaa aku nak sihat~...

dah xtau nak buat ape nieee... sakitnye yaa amat!!...

LIKE WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME NIEEE??

WEIRD SICKNESS....MAYBE....

It's mine! not Ours!!

hello!! see the title? haaa sedar diri pleasee!
this is the entry about the S.P.E.C.I.A.L EDITION THAT RUINED MY MOOD!
cerita nya bermula bila aku baru balik dari rumah ili dua tiga hari lepas which means JUMAAT~,...hari barakah ok~

aku balik rumah dengan hati yg senang lagi tenang....tetapi............................

tapi bila aku tau keadaan rumah aku... hati aku jadi panas balik...rupa2nya sepanjang kami sekeluarga xdak dirumah... rumah kami mendapat 'TUAN' baru... Luuuunnncchhhhooouurr BETOL!... sesuka hati masuk rumah... act LIKE A BOSS... tekan suiz tue tekan suiz nie... PANAS BRO!... aku dengar macam2!...

sepupu aku ada tanya... fau ada suruh **** mai bukak lampu lam rumah kaa waktu hampa xdak? aku pun jawab xde pun nape? haa dia **** kata hampa suruh bukak lampu kat rumah... angin aku dah xleh sabaq.... aku ckap... nie! p tanya dia sapa yg suruh tue... klau dia ckap fau meh nak p tampaq buang mulut tue!....

M.E.L.A.M.P.A.U!!

seriusly... kau sape!... sakit hati memng xterkata laa kan...first2 aku sampai rumah,... aku check suma bilik... berkunci or not!... yup bilik yg sepatutnya dikunci masih berkunci.... then aku pun rilek la kan... nak masuk dapur suma suiz lampu kipas n kitchen exhaust smoke pon xleh bukak... aku ckap J.A.H.A.N.A.M!!....

then tengah belek2 org yg DIKEHENDAKI melakukan perkara2 terkutuk tue pun datang... ketuk pintu rumah aku... dengan salam xbg.. duk kakak2.. ABAH KAU!!... aku yg xtawu ape nie bukak laa pintu... aku tanya napa? saja... Opah mana? xtau duk bawah kot... then TANPA DIPELAWA OK! dia masuk... aku ckap laa... opah ckap nk datng... dia terkejut weey!... then dia duduk... aku memng MELUAT! nak tengok dia.... then aku nampk dia pegi dapur... bukak peti ais... then amik air ape sume..

AMBOIII!! aku yg 3 hari xdak kat rumah baru balik nie pun xsempat bukak peti sejuk lagi!... melampau TAHAP 3.!!!!

Budak nie aku rase layak ikut satria biru laut terjun GAUNG je!!!....
(Satria biru laut dendam aku dengan kau xhabis lagi k sebb kau meletakkan keluarga aku dalam bahaya!)

then opah datang bawak **** balik!... aku lega kejap...
now aku sorang... xtakut kaayy... tapi risau!.. sebabnye... lampu keliling rumah + bahagian dapur JAHANAM xbuleh bukak.... telefon rumah JAHANAM xleh sambung!... last2 aku pun risau la kan... klau jadi ape2 JAHANAM aku sorang2...

2-5 minit lepas tue... ade org ketuk pintu dapur... ALHAMDULLILAH!! SUPERAUNTY N SUPERUNCLE aku datang.... ya allah!! abah!!! diorang masuk2 diorang terus tanya... apa jadi tadi? macm mana? dia masuk ka dak... aku pun cerita laaa pertapaan dia kat rumah aku yg berlaku selama 7-9 minit...

diorang pun cerita laa... dia tue baru balik dari me-lunch-ourr ngan kawan dia,... keluar pukul 12 tgh  balik kul 8 mlm... MAK DATUK!!... lagi sekali aku ckap... JAHANAM!!...
tengah2 diorang teman aku sementara tunggu family yg entah pukul brape nak smpai... kami pun sembang laa kan... tengah2 sembang zzaaaasssss!! ELEKTRIK PADAM DAAA....

aaaaiiiieeee angin aku satu badan... budak nie buat apa nie kat rumah aku!!! evil devil sungguh!!!...
terpaksa laa aku ikut abah balik rumah dia... wuuwuuwuuu... xpa2... berape jam je lagi family aku nak balik...

tapi it end up aku tido umah abah xbalik2 hahahah... soo aku terSANGAT!lah geram dengan minah **** eerghh!! klau laa bisaa aku jerit... akan ku tampor pipinye!!... tapi apa kan daya... downy pon xmampu... whahaha merapus!... ok laaa... setakat tue je laa ke-geram-an yg dapat ditunjukkan~.... nak buat entry baru pulak... tunggu~....

Being left doesn't mean being forgotten.

KLdalamAS

Haaaa apa maksud nyaa tuee? huwaaa saya ditinggalkan di AS( alor star) manakala family berangkat ke Kl... jadinye Kl saya dalam As je laaa.... di rumah ili!! haha 4 hari 3 malam... weeeheeee~.....

sedih la jugak bile duduk ngan family org... tengok diorang dengan family ibu ayah.. kite menumpang je... huwaaaaa mommy!!!.... tapi.... Being left doesn't mean being forgotten right? Like E.V.E.R.Y night!! ibu kakak and all selalu call... dah mkn belum n macam2 lerr kan.... terharu wuuuu... tue aku belum lagi masuk U... waaaa... :'(

sepanjang aku duduk rumah ili aku sedih sgt.... 24 hours aku tengok ili xberenti pegang fon dia... 2 biji plak tue... NON-STOP ok...aku pulak...xde sape nak msg... (msg pun xde yg balas..) ok xpe..... setiap kali aku tido or bangun mesti fon ili ade je msg yg masuk... untungnye dia... suma suka msg ngan dia...

ok xpaa...

C:

semalm...jumaat aku balik dari rumah ili.... family dia hantar sampai ke rumah aku pkok sena... syiok! dapat balik.... sekurang2nya sakit hati plus jeles plus kecewa pasal fon tue terubat sikit sebb aku just nak jumpa family aku jaa yg maybe pagi tue akan sampai....

tapi malam tue aku tido umah aunty and uncle a.k.a abah sebb diorang balik lambat... n rumah aku blackout (edisi ini akan diceritakan dalam entry laen) dalam pukul 4.30 pg... family aku selamat sampai... tetapi aku dh selamat mendarat dekat ruang tamu mak cik aku daa...

8-9 pg centu....Sabtu

aku terjaga time mak cik tengah sapu sampah... hehe~... tido pun kul 3 dah... aku demam... jeng3... aku tanya... ibu xdatang lagi ka?? dak pun... huh... kata selepas subuh nak dtang amik aku... aku pun bngun laa... basuh muka pa suma.... then mak cik panggil makan... makan2... aku nak balik... abah pun hantar laa... 

then jumpa ibu aku... aku dh tersengih2 hahaha... tapi spoil... ibu aku bgtau something jugak... (turut akan dicerita dalam edisi entry laen xnak kacau mood aku) skip3... aku tanya ibu... hehe brang tam mana?? huhuhu ibu tunjuk... tue dlam plastik hitam... yeess3!!! aku pun geledah mcm pencegah maksiat... whahahaha... sukenyee... banyak plak tueee... tue tandenye diorang ingat aku lagi!!... ahahah...

korang nak tengok ape org AS dapat dari org2 yg pegi KL?

haaaa nieee diaaaa....

nie laa glow-in-the-dark things

hahah bnyak an!!.. sebb aku minat bende nie sekarang!... best!!... sekarang aku tengah galak hias bilik.. nak raya woiii!!! PMR lepas raya~... wahahah... 

ok nak sambung belek... adiosss~...

(cerita edisi MELAMPAU tue malam nie la kowt penat weeyyy)

huurmmm~!

Miss Surprise!!

8.55 PM...(place restaurant)

semlm aku puasa... so berbuka dekat rumah biase2 je la... sebb ibu ngan ayah ckap mlm tue nak keluar... so aku just minum2 je... time keluar!... aku dah demand nasi goreng cina + tomyam ayam~... so aku pun order laa mengikut kehendak hati dan nurani~....

beberapa tahun kemudian (waahh tahun kauu~ minute sudaaa~)

makanan pun sampai... aku pun santap laaa ape lg kan...

tengah2 santap... tengah tepi kiri pe suma laa...

'what goes around come back around heey!..' <---ringtone aku daa...

kalut laa nak jawab kan.. tengok2 number 013... aikss... sape niee? angkat je laa

assalammualaikum... nie sape?  haa hello... waalaikummussalam... nie SNA! haaa kaauu... nasib nasi dah habis... klau x.. lekat dengan sudu sekali paa....

soo aku cool la kan... aku jawab... balik.. oohh haa call japg boleh? tengah mkn...haa pukul brapa? boleh misscall dak? xpa2 satg fau msg... haa ok... letak2 fon...

amik laa sudu garfu nak makn... mak aiii tangan kiri yg pegang fon tadii KETAQ baiiii!!

-sssssseeeerrrrreeeettt-

oit2... baca luee... bukan ketaq sebab takut or what.. ketaq sebab... ya allah.. berapa bulan aku xdengaq suara tue... serius aku rindu gila!!... terus kenyang weeyy!... then ayah laa tempat aku mencurahkan muka kenyang minta dihabiskan makanan ku~~...

then g beli barang laa ape laa... aku nak gila balik cepat2 so that boleh minta dia call... sampai2 rumah ade laa plak number 014 yg tidak dikenali... call... aku pun angkat wat cool kan.... hello assalammualaikum... nie sapa... dia jawab... hye tengah buat apa tue... (reject! salam xjawab) dak nie sapa?? nie admire awak lah...

oohohohoh ok sy buzy byee... (mmg aku tengh buzy pun!) 

then msg SNA minta dia call... dlam masa yg sama number 014 tue pun duk call... bengang + bengong laa kan.... bila aku reject call 014 automatic nya aku TERRreject call SNA then SNA pun msg... angkat laa...

aikkss aku pun blas... call laa.... hahah~... last2 mampu jugak berbincang... alhamdullilah settle masalah...

sekarang masalah aku kurang , just tinggal lagi sorang ja... huwwaaa bila yg tue boleh settle? aku dah penat laaa... lepas2 bincang tuee tido xsedaq habaq sampai kul 3 pagi... ohmegosshhh!!! kerja sekolah belum langsaimaaa... langsuirrr betoii... 

aku pun bngun laaa... habis2 buat nota kh... aku g pack baju... oh3!... aku akan away dari blog tersyg selama 3-4 hari or lebih laa... sebb parents aku nak g KL tengok / amik kakak balik sebb dia tengah tunggu due nak bersalin... so aku yg mangsa PMR 2012 nie xleh laa ikut... kene g skolah.. so hantar laa aku ke rumah Ili adek ku... sejak esok~... xpa2... lepas2 pack baju

M.A.N.D.I... 4.30 pagi!! ok... saaadiss muuchh!! habis2 mandi aku amik masa sikit nak menulis blog nieee... lepas gian.... nak tinggal... huuuwaaa!!! xpa2.. nanti bila dah balik aku buat post 1000 patah perkataan naih~... (aku rasa nie pun dh nak dekat 1000 ahahha)

seriusly.. aku terlalu2 penat.... lately nie xsempat tido.. xcukup tido... and slalu sakit pala bila jam around 12 noon... and seterusnya... sampai petang... terus ke mlm... ibu ckap sebb masuk angin kowt....dah perangai xmau mkn kan~... then puasa xnak sahur... aaa padan muka~...

so conclusion dia.. tengah type nie pon aku nak tertido g~... haiiiyaaa... penat!!... pagi nie plak.. ada senam robik 1 malaysia tuee... mampoih aku... xpengsan tergolek tengah padang tuee...

JAHANAAMM~~...

ok laahh sampai sini dulu... nak tidoq xdan dah aih~~... ok people... adios!!!!

thankss SNA!!.. ME LOVE U MUCCHH!!! soorryy for everything... misunderstanding~.... u still the best thing that ever been mine!

From yesterday till today...

Psycho 

Fau: budak C

****: Abg A (in realiti jgn harap aku panggey abg k!)

Kawan fau: budak A

Adek: budak B 

lets the story begin~~

huhuhuh aloooohaaa.... wuuu tengok laa sub topic tuee... eh2 dah mcm exam kan bersub2... heeww...SCARY~~~ meehh nak story...there was a man I call it **** dalam niee fau tulis abg A je laa kan... haaaa cerita dia begini... abg A telah dimasukkan ke..... PLKN!... dari situ dia start baik ngan fau...

dia slalu msg fau everrryyy week dapat fon... tapi!... 

yg fau xpuas hatinyee... setiap kali dia msg mesti dia tulis ish abg A sedih laa tension laa geram laa... dengan budak A... abg A syg kat dia.. dia duk buat abg A ceni... budak B tue pulak dh dapat bf lupa abg A... hurm xpa laa abg A fau kan ada.... fau bleh jaa msg ngan abg A... bila abg A bosan... then hubungan msg nie berterusan sampai laa kemarin dulu... ini yg terjadi...

abg A msg budak A... then budak A ckap dia dah ada bf baru... bukan dia yg cari tapi jodoh yg dtng... 

bila abg A dengar cm tuee... abg A bebai laa... dia msg budak B.. adek... abg A nak mintak kapel ngan adek boleh? naahaaaiii budak B tue dh anggap abg A nie mcm abg dia kowt!...

tolak mentah2...

then abg A msg fau... fau abg A nak mintak maaf abg A xleh msg fau buat sementara waktu nie... nnti abg A dah balik PLKN abg A msg fau... fau pun blas laa.. nie mesti sebb budak A dah ada pengganti kan... tue otak abg A mcm nak pecah tue.. nie abg A klau dh macm nie perengai abg A duk bawak masalah cinta lama abg A duk kait ngan fau... xmsg terus pun xpa... assalam!... 

then lepas tue... abg A msg budak A dia ckap... aku xkan biar hg dengan org laen... haha! aku jumpa budk tue siap ngan aku!... tediaaa.... then abg A jugak laa duk call budak B sampai berpuluh kali ckap nak hajak keluar... dalam masa yg sama jugak... abg A msg aku... abg A harap bila abg A balik kita boleh bincang benda nie baik-baik O.o

-gasp-

dalam hati fau.... aku xmauuu bincang... aku bukn cerai ngan hg... mummy!!! tolong... hahaha serius psyh! takut kowt!!! dia duk call 3 org kami xberenti!!... call budak A dalam proses penceraian... call budak B mintak rujuk.... call budak C which is Fau... mintak bincang baik2... akuu xmauu masuk campuqqq... waaa takut... dia ingat kami nie apa?? madu dia? hahahah... seyeess takut!...

lepas tue p sekolah harinie kami 3 org duk menjerit ke-trauma-an laa... duk cerita apa yg abg A msg kami suma... BENDA YG SAMA DIA MSG KAMI SUMAA... S.C.A.R.Y DAK? scary muccch!! 

fau cuba lupakan masalah tue and focus untuk petang tue memandangkan tiba2 ada bengkel menjawab agama islam for PMR... pysh! aku dah la xtidoq semlm... hangguk aku kat dalam tuee... nasib baik ada ili kawan a.k.a adik tersyg kat sebelah...

tengah2 kushyuk cuba memfocuskan diri... adik aku ckap... fau! mr revive hg... sshuuuuuwww aku terus pusing ke arah yg dimaksudkan... hahaa dengn selamber spontan nyee senyuman terukir... ahaha~... mr revive... then dia hilang disebalik bangunan sekolah yg INdah itu.... lepas dia hilang... fau pusing kat ili...

fau ckap...

ahaha~ aku suka tengok dia... huhuhu~.... bila tengok dia rasa mcm org yg aku perlu ada dekat jaa ngan aku... weeee~ ohmygoooshhh gediks mucccch!! tapi nie realiti... xleh hindar sorry~...muahahha... 

then bila habis bengkel... aku try cari dia... nak menghilangkan sakit kepala aku... aaaaallllooooorrrhhhhh!!

xjumpa... sedih sejam~...

Heading back to my house~

Dari rumah ili ayah datang amik... minta ayah singgah jap dekat more and save (konon save~!) beli glow in the dark object!... oh2!! now aku agak obses ngan glow-in-the-dark object niee... aku tengah kumpul dekat mane jeee yg aku jumpe... terus beli balik rumah pelekat2 dekat bilik... konon nak buat terapi mengubat hati... insyaallah jadi...

so tadi aku beli dua set... syiok macam budak2 dapat menan wooo.... dengan pembalut dia seyess best!... ahahha... childish muccch!! 

xsabaq gila nak balik pasang... then bukak puasa lepas tue g tusyen... habih2 tusyen... balik rumah masuk bilik terus belek2...cara aku tear the rappers dah mcm org dpat hadiah birthday... HAPPY GILA! lepas2 tore tue aku mula laa melompat2 nak lekat dekat dinding... hahha cooomeeyy (err puji diri sendiri? perasan MUUCHH!) now after dah lekat2... aku berenti jap... on lappy and now im here.... typing all the merapuss word... to you all... aha~....

MR REVIVE~~~ me wanna be friend with you!!... :D

Syiok usha org... xpenah try first time buat seyess syiok! aha~... nak jadi stalker? xpa trimakasih je la~.

bengkel agama islam: samekom... =sam: celake, mek : mak , kom : kau... celake mak kau... maksodnye... so pandai2 laaahh ringankan lidah untuk menyebut assalammualaikum~... ^_______________^

Sape2 yg g jenjalan teringat nak beli something kat fau, belilah glow in the dark objects... heee... suka3... 

mucchh! <----nia ayat yg fau suka sebut... so what... ahahha~... ok laahh... berenti2... nak sambung lompat2 lekat2 benda comey~~... aha~... bubyee people... me <3 you~

Syahduuu~

Sunday, 8/7/2012, 2.37 A.M

alahai... blog dah tolong tulis laa sume tuee.. uhuhuhu~.... bukan ape... aku xleh tido n... HUJAN! korang rase kan sesalannye bile dekat luar hujan menggile...tapi korag xleh tido? aha~.... 

eh2... post nie dlam MALAY lagi laa... why? aku rasa aku dah xlarat nak berspeaking bagai... BI aku yang dulu agak tinggi average n grade nye dari org laen makin merosot jee... xpenah2 dapat B tibe2 dapat B nahai!... satu penghinaan untuk menunjukkan yg BI aku semakin barai~...

jadi amiklah langkah sedar diri tahap 1 berhentilah speaking!... ahahaha~

harinie hampir sehari aku menelaah blog kakak nie... aku dapat inspirasi tentang apa sebenarnya blog!..

blog dia jadikan sebagai DIARI...dia bnyak story kat blog...

and story dia suma best2... ada time aku gelak...ada time jugak aku nangis... sadisss

so aku bercadang nak amik dia jadi idola blog aku... haa klau dia tahu aku calonkan dia nie...

confirm nangis!...ya allah syahdu nyee hujan...kenapelah aku xleh tido? hurmmm... nie suma sebb S.T.U.D.Y... sedihkan~...

sebelum tue aku nak minta maaf dulu laa kan walaupun belum raye... kepada org2 yg terlibat dapat masa menggila aku buat beberapa hari yg lepas...

korag pun sedia maklum... aku sendiri dah minta maaf berdepan and cakap dengan penuh semangat tenteranya yg berbunyi....

'aku minta maaf ek sebb agak menggila dua tiga hari nie, dengan mata panda aku dengan muka serabai aku, semua yg buat korang risau la kan... aku harap korang paham sebab nya... aku jadi mcm tue just sebb dua org yg aku syg dlam hidup aku... pegi dalam satu masa yg sama... (sadisss) pemergian diorang agak berat sebb... diorang still hidup!... n aku xleh anggap mcm tue... berat kan? so aku harap korang paham sgt bila aku tiba2 murung. nangis or tergelak sorang2... walaupun aku kenal diorang kejap... kenangan dia berjuta dalam diri... payah aku nak lupa satu2... korang mintak aku cerita A-Z pun aku still ingat... words-by-words...

And! kawan2 aku pun trima... diorang ckap... xpe laa... sekali sekala menggila... kiteorg paham...kau mmg mcm tue kaaaannn (Ili punya ayat la nieee ) xpe laa kau bagi diorang masa n kau just focuskan untuk masa depan kau sekarang...marah manusia ade hikmah nye... baik buruk mereka kau trima... no body perfect kan...

sebenarnya aku xnak pon marah diorang... benci diorang or else.... just cube paham... bile aku marah tue... aku cuba membina kekuatan dalam diri untuk hidup sendiri... kadang2 bile tengok korang buat xheran dekat aku... dlam diri aku terdetik... kau kene pertahankan diri... jgn biar diorang tengok kau lemah... nescaya terkeluarlah perkataan.... heyy aku bleh laa hidup sendiri! korang ingat korng hebat!? 

seriously korang Memang hebat........ aku sebenarnye xmampu pun nak trima kenyataan yg aku dah xleh contact korang... tapi aku try... now aku dah xnak sebut2 pasal korang lagi... bukan benci... tapi aku tengah cuba nak lupekan korang... org ckap... why we waste an hour to remember someone that never think about us even for a second? huhuhu~....

so start daripada harinie... aku xkan story lagi pasal diorang... kecuali kalau betul2 ade story pasal diorang la kan... cerita baik jgn disimpan... cerita dalam kain jgn dibuka. maybe post2 aku lepas nie akan masuk dengan email aku which is talkingtothehearts.... aku betul2 akan berckap dengan hati aku sendiri lepas nie O.o superwoman much!....

aku nak luah kan segala penat lelah yg aku rasa dekat sini... aku nak story hidup aku dari pukul 5 pagi sampai ke 5 pagi esok nya... aku nak bercerita di blog yg sentiasa ada coverage bila aku perlukannya.. (Sebab ayah amik streamix yg KEeeeeliaaa punyaa) *k syg ayah~

OOOoooohhhh dah pukul 3.... lajunya aku merapuss... sesuai dengan nama ladolcedefau~... aku kenelah menampilkan image dolce aku (which mean sweet~) dolce nie perkataan italy... aku belajar piano so automaticnya aku harus belajar italy... semak~~

to all yg terlibat dalam kisah yg ala2 kisah cinta nie.. entah laa aku takreti nak terang.....dua org nie aku syg gila2... ya sorang perempuan n sorang lelaki... dua2 nie xpenah aku kenali... bila aku syg yg perempuan nie org nmpak gile laa aku nie friendly and penyayang... tapi bab lelaki niee... org bnyak pertikai yg aku dah fall in love dengan dia... NO! seriously aku ckap... aku xpenah ada rasa cinta langsung... tapi aku syg dia gila2...

aku pon xpaham... padahal apa yg aku buat kat dia... aku akan buat jugak dekat yg ppuan tue... tapi org laen xnampak... diorang just nampak apa yg aku buat dkat lelaki tue.... n conclusion it as a love... siot kan...diorang siap tanya g.. eleh mane tau one day cinta kau dibalas...hhaha for me... IMPOSSIBLE gilaaa kan... tengok laa dia dengan aku.... walaupun currently aku panggil pak cik (uncle leteew) aku xrasa aku layak jadi anak menakan dia... langit ngan bumi pon xbeza jauh mcm kiteorg... kecilnyee hamba di dunia ini~... wuwuuuuwuuu....

so conclusionnye aku pun xpaham apa yg bermain di minda aku nie... sebab aku dah tekad dalam hati no love until the right time... the time is when people call me the real Teenager's miss Fau....sekarang aku rasa aku still childish much! serius aku MANJA gila!. aku pun xtaw cena nak elak benda tue... sifat semulajadi kowt....

org yg kenai aku jaaa yg aku taw aku manja mcm mana....

hurmmmm aku rasa klau nak cerita pasal aku pulak... xberenti laa gamaknyaaa.... 

so aku stop sini dulu... aku nak buat hw... then study sikit... then tido balik... huahauahauhau~

kirim salam saya kepada org2 yg disayangi hanya mampu diberi melalui perantaraan kita dengan bulan... jika salamnya ikhlas rindu nya yg tidak berbelah bagi... mereka pasti mendengar melalui hati... jika tidak... bulan pun xmendengar... aku yakin bulan adalah penghubung terbaik selepas ALLAH S.W.T... :')

Fau rindu korang... 

My Best Trickster....

huhuhh~ hello people... this post gonna be in MALAY~ because its for someone yg dulu precious laa ape laa and it turn out to be my best trickster.... CAN U SEE HOW IM USING MY BM TO COVER YOUR IDENTITY THROUGH THE WHOLE WORLD? HAHA~


Hurrmmm... ptg jumaat yg indah lagi barakah nie...saya yg demam dengan catatan yg menggila pun tido.... Tetapi! dengan tiba2 dan xsengaja... telefon ku berbunyi minta diangkat...tertera nma papa di situ... dengan ceria dan penuh semangat laa aku angkat...

angkat2 papa pun tanya... nie fau bgtau papa syg... fau tulis apa dekat fb... huh? (muka blur 4 minute) nape papa? ade ape? x tadi mummy msg, mula2 elok jaa... then dia tanya... duk contact g ka dengan fau? haa laa anak kesygngan...napa... habaq kat dia jga sikit mulut...jgn duk buat lebih kurang jaa... O_o tengok laa nanti org balik org p serang rumah dia tampaq mulut tue bla3.... sudaaahh!

Fau nak dengaq sampai situ ja!.... why? haaa papa dah ckap jgn duk p serang mummy or msg... nnti papa settlekan.. papa xbg msg mai aku nak menulis....

nie! hg nak serang org? nak keluar rumah pun ada orang xbagi.. ada hati nak mai pokok sena sorang2? hahah agak lawak laa... lagi satu... mai nak habaq... salah kaa apa yg aku buat? yup! mmg salah... btw hg berasa noh? bagus lah...

mai nak habaq sikit cik kak... hg sendiri pun xbetoi... duk expect anak hg nak jadi betoi? ohohohoh lawk sat... ilmu parenting hg xcukup g cik kak oiii.... dulu klau aku kutuk org... hambuiihh hg sokong dari belakang noh.... now hg terasa kena kat batang hidung hg... baru nak melenting... rasa balik cena org laen rasa bila kita dua kutuk depa dulu.... bak kata hg laa kan the power of mother n daughter... then hg ingat bila aku duk sorang aku xdak power tue laa? bhahaha duk buat lawak bleh...

attitude someone never lost laa kakak... ayah dia hina aku boleh? aku hina aaaiii maqah... seriously... bila papa ckap hg nak mai serang aku... aku ckap... nie msg dia.. suruh dia tanya diri dia... dia betoi dak? cara dia sekarang nie betoi dak? klau semua yg dia buat dah betoi n perfect and xdak salah yg dia lakukan... mai serang... jgn sampai salah n silap masa lalu menghantui hg...

aku sendiri xpaham apa salah aku kat family hg sampai depa layan aku mcm nie? sedangkan hg bebas text mana2 kawn lelaki even my papa yg depa forbid pun hg boleh duk msg... awat aku salah seorang girl yg depa forbid hg xleh msg? dengn alasan papa xbg... or else hg mmg lama dah xmau msg ngan aku....

look... aku buleh paham klau hg ckap hg busy... tapi apa yg aku xleh paham n xmau paham... org duk cerita kat aku depa duk msg hg! and org tu plak JANTAN! hg paham dak? siap tanya aku fau xmsg kakak ka? puiih! apa reaction hg klau jatuh kat muka hg!? aku time tue nak nangis pun xboleh dah... sebab you are my best tricker! aku cakap kau!....

sebb daripada kau ckap kau busy... lebih baik kau sound aku direct.. please jgn kacau kau... kau dah xnak msg aku... ckap! jgn nak bersembunyi di sebalik alasan BUSY... and lagi satu.. aku xrasa kau sanggup apa2 kan aku... why? sebb kalau betul kau nak buat.. kau xcakap dkat org lain like my papa... kau akan direct call aku... but why kau xcall aku? haha nak ckap ngan aku pun xnak kan? sebb kau tahu aku... kau tahu mulut aku yg xkan kalah dengan pendirian supernova kau tue.....

kau tahu kau xkan menang dengan cakap2 kau... aku YAKIN! so... nasihat aku... kau tengok diri n silap kau dulu.. klau betul kau xade silap... silekan... datang sini tampar aku... (even parents aku xpenh tampar aku) kau nak jadi org pertama... silekan... kau kan bekas ibu aku... tapi silap besar la klau lepas kau sentuh anak Jamil bin jamal kan... ape kau nak kene.. kau tanggung kayy...

sebut pasal ilmu parenting... parent aku xlet go aku sepenuhnye.. tapi diorang bg kepercayaan kat aku... and so far xde lagi masalah yg aku bagi... conteng arang dekat muke diorng jauh sekali... tapi kau.. parent gile2 jage kau... forbid itu forbid ini... perangai kau xde lah A mane pon... same je... ngan kiteorg... worst lagi ada... so point dia kat sini.. parents xbleh tekan anak2 sgt... sebb once kita sebut... klau kakak buat benda niee tengok laa mama nak buat apa.. anak2 akan rasa nak buat... n sekali diorang buat n dapat hukuman.. hukuman tue akan terus sebati.. like my parent... diorang akan ckap... ibu percaya kat kakak.. so  guna kepercayaan ibu nie elok2... n apa aku rasa? aku rasa benda tue penting.. kemana aku pegi aku akan bawa pesan n kepercayaan depa.. apa aku nak buat.. aku akan pikir depa... kau x.. kau bila nak buat something kau pikir apa? apa hukuman yg aku akan kena.. tue sebb kau buat!.. paham?

harap gilen kan... lepas kau baca post nie... kau kuatkan dri cari fakta2 yang betul tentang diri and tindakan kau... kau call aku bgtau... mcm yg kau berani ckap dekt papa aku... aku nk dengar dari mulut kau... kau nak hentam aku kan... hentam.. aku tunggu...

*fon kau pakai kredit kan... bukan bill... senoi~

btw papa n mummy dalam nie hanya adopted... bukan my real parents... my real parents terbaik!